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hey there.
Krysくりすたる り うい きあん.
Welcome to my little writing nook.
I'm not sure what you expect by being here, and frankly, I don't know what I expect of this blog as well.
Perhaps as a space for me to release all my pent-up tension for various reasons?
Or perhaps as a 'posting ground' for all my pieces?
This is a cordial invitation from the creator of the blog herself for you to join her as she explores the different facets of her life, and perhaps the life of others as well as a place to read some pieces from the blogger herself.
Everything posted on this blog is disclaimed and belongs to their original owners.
© Krys 2008-2011. All rights reserved. Distribution of any kind is prohibited without the written consent of Krystal Lee.
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At the Cusp
Wednesday, July 13, 2011 @ Wednesday, July 13, 2011
It's starting to sink in.
The fact that I have officially ended eleven years of primary and secondary education and now am moving along to bigger, greater things. That I most likely will not see my friends in future. That life is about to change inevitably and irrevocably.
As admitted in a previous post, I dislike change.
I really do. This trait is like some extreme version of inertia acting on me to resist change to the best of my ability. Unfortunately, as most of you would probably know, change is much stronger than all the forces we have learnt. Again, I reiterate, unfortunately.
This revelation of not so epic proportions (I bet some of you are already coming to terms with this unfortunate fact of life) frankly frightens me.
I now confess my fear of moving out of my comfort zone. Of having to try to fit in again.
The numerous 'what-ifs' haunt me.
What if I cant fit in?
What if I bungle up things?
What if...
What if I am not good enough?
And from the final statement, you see my insecurities creeping in like a cloud of doom to rain upon my parade.
My biggest fear is not being good enough for everyone, especially myself. Because I am very aware of the word 'expectation' that hangs above me like an executioner's guillotine. And I am more aware of the noose around my neck and the knowledge that it is I that holds that noose around my neck of my own accord.
Before you scream in horror and call the bobbies on me, let me now state that I am not in any way suicidal, thank you very much.
It's just that I am most afraid of disappointing myself.
Irrational? I think not.
But I do know one thing.
Inside me, there lies a grain of excitement.Labels: random posts, reflections, self-penned
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about.
Krys くりすたる り うい きあん
Hello. My name is Krystal. Born on November 6th.
Krystal loves being called 'Krys' but only allows this to special people.
She loves polar bears and pretty kittens as well as ice cream and mittens.
Writing makes her insanely happy and gives her a high while reading brings a smile upon her face.
She's tall, standing at 179cm, but she has a slight dislike of heights.
(Lie. She's terribly afraid of them)
Musing and overthinking is her forte, as well as coming out with stuff you won't see anywhere else.
♥ Takeshi Kaneshiro.
She loves soup. Really, really loves soup.
And oh - she wouldn't trade being her for anything in the world. ♥♥♥
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